hi, it's been a long time.
I came back here, because i want to tell something.
you know Shinee Jonghyun? he's a one of member Shinee (boygroup), a solo, a celebrity but he also just a 27-year-old guy.
I'm not a fan of him, i just thought he's a good artist, not a problematic artist, and i just saw him on a variety show like knowing bros.
I was very shocked when I read he's died. I thought it's just a fake news. and it turns out to be true
I dont know but it really affects me a lot. He did a suicide.
and he planned it maybe from this early December, before his concert on 9-10 dec
it's just sad and shocking to think and imagine how sad and how much pain did he felt before he finally takes a decision to end his life.
it's scaring me. He looks so bright.. and full of smile, maybe because i'm not a fan of him that's why i dont pay attention.
it's regrettable... he died at such a young age.
I read his letter. I saw his lyric from the song his composed. It's just obvious he's crying out loud asking for help. But maybe he did already talk about his worry to his friend/family but they just cant help him.
I wonder what was he thinking when he plans all of it.
in one of his song, which is Breathe by lee hi.
the lyric is :
Although comforting by saying it’s alright are just words
Yes it is. I agree with it.
there was a time when I felt so lonely, sad, and just tired mentally and physically and i just want to turn off my life.
and sometimes I told my worry to agni/my other friend.
They always said " tenang aja tes, berdoa, semuanya bakal baik2 aja, Tuhan pasti siapin jalan yang terbaik buat lo, pasti semua ini ada alasan nya."
The point is they're saying it's ok, everything will be fine.
Dan entah gue enek BGT, memang maksud mereka baik, memotivasi gue, memberikan gue harapan, telling me everything will be fine. Tapi kayak gue males aja bacanya atau dengernya.
Kayak gue mikir, kapan baik nya? harus sampe kapan sabarnya?
Ya. gue pernah merasakan dan memikirkan hal seperti itu.
But well these days my life is fine.. so I'm thankful for that.
dan apa yang buat gue bertahan?
i dont know, i just too coward that time. gue ngerasa takut aja ngerasain sakit.
ya baguslah gue masih merasakan takut akan sakit dibanding gue tidak merasakan apa-apa.
Dan bagaimana gue melanjutkan hari-hari selanjutnya? gue hanya bergantung dengan internet, korean, kpop, kucing. Kalo hal-hal itu ga ada, atau tiba-tiba gue gabisa pake internet lagi atau laptop dan hp gue rusak, mungkin gue gabisa tahan.
Lebay ya?
iya.
tapi kenyataan nya gitu. kpop, korean variety show, series really help me to escape my reality.
udah ah. bye
I came back here, because i want to tell something.
you know Shinee Jonghyun? he's a one of member Shinee (boygroup), a solo, a celebrity but he also just a 27-year-old guy.
I'm not a fan of him, i just thought he's a good artist, not a problematic artist, and i just saw him on a variety show like knowing bros.
I was very shocked when I read he's died. I thought it's just a fake news. and it turns out to be true
I dont know but it really affects me a lot. He did a suicide.
and he planned it maybe from this early December, before his concert on 9-10 dec
it's just sad and shocking to think and imagine how sad and how much pain did he felt before he finally takes a decision to end his life.
it's scaring me. He looks so bright.. and full of smile, maybe because i'm not a fan of him that's why i dont pay attention.
it's regrettable... he died at such a young age.
I read his letter. I saw his lyric from the song his composed. It's just obvious he's crying out loud asking for help. But maybe he did already talk about his worry to his friend/family but they just cant help him.
I wonder what was he thinking when he plans all of it.
in one of his song, which is Breathe by lee hi.
the lyric is :
Although comforting by saying it’s alright are just words
Yes it is. I agree with it.
there was a time when I felt so lonely, sad, and just tired mentally and physically and i just want to turn off my life.
and sometimes I told my worry to agni/my other friend.
They always said " tenang aja tes, berdoa, semuanya bakal baik2 aja, Tuhan pasti siapin jalan yang terbaik buat lo, pasti semua ini ada alasan nya."
The point is they're saying it's ok, everything will be fine.
Dan entah gue enek BGT, memang maksud mereka baik, memotivasi gue, memberikan gue harapan, telling me everything will be fine. Tapi kayak gue males aja bacanya atau dengernya.
Kayak gue mikir, kapan baik nya? harus sampe kapan sabarnya?
Ya. gue pernah merasakan dan memikirkan hal seperti itu.
But well these days my life is fine.. so I'm thankful for that.
dan apa yang buat gue bertahan?
i dont know, i just too coward that time. gue ngerasa takut aja ngerasain sakit.
ya baguslah gue masih merasakan takut akan sakit dibanding gue tidak merasakan apa-apa.
Dan bagaimana gue melanjutkan hari-hari selanjutnya? gue hanya bergantung dengan internet, korean, kpop, kucing. Kalo hal-hal itu ga ada, atau tiba-tiba gue gabisa pake internet lagi atau laptop dan hp gue rusak, mungkin gue gabisa tahan.
Lebay ya?
iya.
tapi kenyataan nya gitu. kpop, korean variety show, series really help me to escape my reality.
udah ah. bye
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