It's a midnight. Rencana mau tidur, tapi gabisa, merem tapi mikir. Dan tiba-tiba keinget masa-masa pertama kenalan sama D terus keinget K. and suddenly i just choked up and my tears falling down.
Wow. I don't know why I'm like this right now. Apa karena perasaan gue lagi sensitif atau apa, idk man.
Hanya tiba-tiba terpikir, I'm not completly forget my feelings for D and K.
I still have a feelings for D but then I covered it when I'm with K but then I covered it with my korean addict. So it's not a completly forgot.
Gue baca post-post gue beberapa bulan lalu, yang berharap buat bahagia tanpa cowo atau jatuh cinta lagi, and yes it's happening right now. Udah 5 bulan i'm just doing fine without boys dan ga galauin masa lalu lagi.
Tapi anehnya, ini semacam apa ya, ga ngerti juga diri gue, tapi cuma dengan nge- recall memory2 pas saat D & K perasaan gue bener-bener langsung keinget lagi how hurt it is. Like, you can choked up with tears cuma karena lagi mau tidur dan nginget masa-masa itu.
so interesting to found myself like this.
Ada beberapa cowo yang deketin gue, contohnya G, bener-bener gue udah sering acuhin dan ya dia masih chat lagi. Tapi gue ga luluh juga sampe sekarang. He's fun, kind, bukan tipe yang gue benci juga, gondrong pula. Tapi gatau ya, rasanya kaya my feeling is dead. Kalo diwarnain, warna nya abu-abu menjurus ke hitam. Temen-temen gue bilang "udah gapapa tes coba aja deket sm ini, jadiin temen chat aja" but well... gue lagi ga tertarik chat sama cowo. Si G ini dia asik di chat dan langsung, tapi gue gabisa buat ceritain hari2 gue ke dia.
I'm the type like something is happen then I will tell you even maybe it's not something big and important.. tapi gue gabisa buat chat sebebas itu sama G. I don't know even setelah gue bertemu dia gue ga merasakan my heart flustered.
Iya kali hati gue lagi ga berfungsi. Lagi mati. Heartless. Well, i loved being like this, there's no reason for me to being worry for someone, and crying for something dumb.
Well, let's a few months later. :p
Wow. I don't know why I'm like this right now. Apa karena perasaan gue lagi sensitif atau apa, idk man.
Hanya tiba-tiba terpikir, I'm not completly forget my feelings for D and K.
I still have a feelings for D but then I covered it when I'm with K but then I covered it with my korean addict. So it's not a completly forgot.
Gue baca post-post gue beberapa bulan lalu, yang berharap buat bahagia tanpa cowo atau jatuh cinta lagi, and yes it's happening right now. Udah 5 bulan i'm just doing fine without boys dan ga galauin masa lalu lagi.
Tapi anehnya, ini semacam apa ya, ga ngerti juga diri gue, tapi cuma dengan nge- recall memory2 pas saat D & K perasaan gue bener-bener langsung keinget lagi how hurt it is. Like, you can choked up with tears cuma karena lagi mau tidur dan nginget masa-masa itu.
so interesting to found myself like this.
Ada beberapa cowo yang deketin gue, contohnya G, bener-bener gue udah sering acuhin dan ya dia masih chat lagi. Tapi gue ga luluh juga sampe sekarang. He's fun, kind, bukan tipe yang gue benci juga, gondrong pula. Tapi gatau ya, rasanya kaya my feeling is dead. Kalo diwarnain, warna nya abu-abu menjurus ke hitam. Temen-temen gue bilang "udah gapapa tes coba aja deket sm ini, jadiin temen chat aja" but well... gue lagi ga tertarik chat sama cowo. Si G ini dia asik di chat dan langsung, tapi gue gabisa buat ceritain hari2 gue ke dia.
I'm the type like something is happen then I will tell you even maybe it's not something big and important.. tapi gue gabisa buat chat sebebas itu sama G. I don't know even setelah gue bertemu dia gue ga merasakan my heart flustered.
Iya kali hati gue lagi ga berfungsi. Lagi mati. Heartless. Well, i loved being like this, there's no reason for me to being worry for someone, and crying for something dumb.
Well, let's a few months later. :p
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