Why so many thoughts in my mind today?

I'm not insist you. I'm not forcing you.

Gue ga pernah maksa seseorang buat suka,sayang, dan peduli sama gue. I never do that.

If you want in my life, so you should have a effort.

If you don't reply my text, so I won't ask.
If you don't talk to me at school, so I won't talk to you too.
If you just reply with a simple text, so I'm.

Eventually, I really want to ask you why you don't reply my text.
                   I really want to talk to you at school,
                   I really want to have a long conversation with you

I really hate a situation like this, because it's wasting my time, wasting my tears, wasting my mind, hurt my feelings at many times.

I just want to end it here.

I don't want to know you anymore.

Childish right? haha

But, it's my way to not get hurt.

I'm trying really hard not to get hurt again.

I want to end it here but... it's hard. I can't.

I feel like there's some feeling talk to me "Tessa, wait a little bit longer. Be patient. Don't too rush. If you want to wait a little bit longer, there's something good for you."

I FEEL LIKE THAT. I'M HOPING. I'M EXPECTING. and that's my fault.

Because if it doesn't come out like my expectation.... you know, gue yang satu-satunya merasa bodoh dan feels so disappointed.
                       
I really don't want to feel like this, i just want to have fun with other things without love,boys,dll

But how can I. How can I do that.